Why does it have to be me?

Everyday since the second 3 grade(by second i mean i failed and repeated 3 grade) Ive always been teased about a lot of things and there becoming even more hurtful.Like always being called emo and goth, i hear them talking behind my back saying emo girls dont belong here and you belong in the dumpster and being called a big head ive always been mean to people who hurt me but people think im mean and all and no one wants to talk to me im always at a corner and im always being asked out as a joke and they dont know how much that hurts i only cut myself 2 but now i think back and i was stupid.Im always covering my face and everything i just want to be like a normal girl with friends i only have a couple and going home isnt fun but the safest place same there my sister teases me and my brother and im always being punished for nothing sometimes i think life would be easier if i would just go away killing myself would be easier or running away (i know i should seek help but idk wat 2 do wat if they tell my mom im just scared)